When

When the weight of the world is weighing me down
When I feel like I cannot go on
When my spirit is as dry as a desert
When I look around and see no hope
When everything I have done to find peace no longer works
When I have turned to the world to help me cope
When I run and hide
When I am battered and torn
When I am unbreakable
When I am unable to cry
When I cannot find forgiveness in my heart
When my heart has become cold
When bitterness and anger rule me
When I no longer choose to hear truth
When I have beeen blinded from your goodness
When I have laid down and given up
When there's no words to describe the pain I feel inside
When guilt and shame are the garmets I wear
When I cannot find you
When I cant hear your voice
When I cannot see your truth
When I no longer hunger for righteousness
When I have pushed you away
When I have come to the end of my rope
Thats  when I cry out Abba Father
When I  repent
When I ask for forgiveness
When I seek your grace and your mercy
When you find my hiding place
When you speak and I hear
When what was once unbreakable is now broken
When tears flow down
When  hope has returned
When anger and bitternes are removed by your blood
When the pain inside is no longer there
When the garment of guilt and shame are replaced with garments of your Righteousness
When you  say get up and live
When you guide my steps
When you feel my spirit with living water
When you wrap your arms around me and call me your beloved
When I am able to stand again
When I have regained my strength
That's when you send me to go back on the front lines and do battle.

Father, thank you for loving me with patience and long suffering. Thank you for always being there even when I feel you are not. I love you Lord Jesus! Amen

Jackie Burgess
7/12/12